I am talking sense... But its so damn hard to act!

We are not living in bad times, it was always a bad time somewhere while we were partying hard... its like now they are knocking our doors and its getting a bit harder to ignore, but we still are somehow succeeding for at least i have a great habit of forgetfullness and oh have better things to worry abt, besides when was it that i didnt knew "death is certain!" and arent they just dying... so wat they are being killed. who cares how u die after u are dead! we cudnt care to raise a voice when mughees and mujeeb were being killed in front of us... and we think we are ready to die for these beheaders running around the city... no we are not... even if they killl our own brothers or sisters the max we will do is mourn for a day or two... and move on... even if it kills us... we are ok... may be a mother will fear parting from her kid, but hey i just feel it may actually releive her for does she think her kid had a betyter future in this part of the land...

Wont it be just better for her to think her son is away from evil lying in a place where no terrorist or murderers can harm him... That he is finally at peace, which she herself even for trying hard for yrs cudnt guarantee him/ her...

So i am not really afraid... ofcourse i will freak out ... but once the bullet does its work or wat ever tool... i will then be completely at peace... having only one thing to deal with ...

God...

who will not be concerned abt how i died... nope he knows that... nor he wud really be concerned abt who did that awful thing to me... he knows that too...

or he will ever ask me is... how i lived, wat i did... how many sins... how man good deeds... wats the balance...

and where i will land...Heaven or Hell

so if u ask me... for me its just that...am i going to heaven or am i going to hell

and if i am going to hell then why fear this...

and if i am going to heaven... then shudnt i be like wanting this to end anyways...


I know i wish for heaven, hate hell... but sometimes the temptations make me forget it all...

and i say who cares for it when we have this life to really worry abt...

but this world is not the only place we are ever going to be... its just one moment to earn something for the rest of the eternity...

and no money wont go with us, nor any other worldly possession... only our good deeds... and love and faith, and wishes and desires... and intentions... and wat ever that we have given in the way of God... for the love of Him

so lets try gathering that... rather then fearing those men... or thinking we need to go out and kill them... how many precisely u think u r going to fight...

they are uncountable...

I tell u man... only good deeds are countable and in our control and reachable range to do something abt ... not fight the evil and kill it...

You think if it was possible for us to end it without getting a scar, Rasulallah and ali and Husain wud have to die in such pain and mysery...

You think this is some kind of a joke or movie where only they get to pay and we get to wsing songs of how wonderful they were while we party and do all that possibly keeps us away from remebering God and remembering where we came from wat we came for...

Dont blame on Zerdari... for God wont ask you wat wrong he did...god will only ask him that and take care of it... you Me... will only have to answer for me and you...
period...