So i did it!

and i dont know wat it will bring... i still know i had to!

we need to tell ppl wat we think and how we feel and even though ppl wont take us positively always... we need to still do it our way...or the way we know...

i have slapped ppl in my life... once i slapped an older colleague...i was eating with him and i felt he touched my hand and i cudnt hold myself i slapped him right in face... and then realised wat i had done... he was off for that... two days... it was impulsive yet necessary... to let him know never again... he must do it...

then i slapped once my bro for pushing me off balance and it came straight... in that moment the anger gets best of me... and ofcourse he was pissed... but then i said sorry or may be i didnt... but i was sweeter to him after that... i love my bro until he teases me in times i am not in mood to take...

and i have virtually slapped u today for all the wrong u did... i know may be it puts the biggest end to everything to ur ever coming back, but it was necessary...

forgiving u without giving u a piece of mind wud be an impossible thing... i am not moving on ... no i dont think i can love anyone like i loved u... and i dont think i will feel good with someone who i dont love like that... but putting words to my feelings is imp...

i never wanted to do that... to hit u... it was one thing i never wanted to ever experience... taht i hoped u will be that one person i can bow too but never raise a hanfd...i had thought u will always be good to me... i will never need to use it with u... no matter how much u tease me hurt me... i will always get along... i will always forgive... but that u will treat me like this... that u will hurt me like this... i never thot u cud... and now that u did... how can i not let u know its not ok... how can this be ok... something u let go and move on...

i slapped u to remind u... it was someones heart u played with... one who treated u like the most imp person... who cared for u, like her own flesh and soul, who cried with u, laughed with u... when u were scared to open up to ur own ppl... who has made a pact to never leave ur side... u played with that one person you so conveniently said u loved and cared for... and one u find so easy to replace... or try to replace... but i know u never can...for i am one piece... someone who has seen u that close and still dared to love u and have faith in u

But why my heart still doesnt beleive... its over... why it still feels hope that one day i will be laughing again... with u... over ur silly bragging and u making fun of me for being so silly... why... i feel one day... i will be there in the kitchen making food for u...and u will be watching me with that cheezy smile... saying something stupid... and make me mess it all up and run to kick u...:) that u will still say something stupid and make me laugh on all this... why i still feel u arent be that bad... u cant be that bad...