Of Ribs and Cages!

they say a woman is made from her mans rib... but if she married more then one man in her life... does that means she is born from the ribs of more then one man? like when she gets divorced or her husband dies... or is it since a man can have more then one rib... i mean woman... a woman can also have more then one ribcage... i mean man? and those who never marry... her man never existed or she refused to be in a cage!

Its a new Day!

Today i start my life as a new born baby... with nothing engraved on her heart! its a clean sheet which i will fill with what i love the most... not what i was told i must love in order to win in this life and here after!

God

I know he is one! And wat ever name u give him... its the same we are referring to...

If this is one world... then he is the Creator... who whether we bow to or not... He will be the creator

If we will bow and love and worship and place our trusts in Him... He will reward us with a life of his beloved creation and if we dont... he will disgrace and make life a hell.

I know that much...i beleive it... and cannot deny it...

He is just! But he is not just the way we want him to be just.

I wanted to ask him, why he choses not to answer the plea of a your girl being raped, or abducted without her will?

I wanted to ask him, why he chose not to grant the mother with a kid when she pleads to give birth

I wanted to ask why he doesnt send a decent men or a men the women can say yes to and fine the reason to live her life then feel unloved and lose hope and vigor to move on

i wanted to ask why he chose to have the innocent killed and the evil hands to rule the world and make decisions that effect lives of those who have no say...

I wanted to ask why he never gives wat we want when we need it the most and when the need for it is no more we are granted it

i wanted to ask why he stretches us to a limit where we fail and give up on wat ever little faith we were able to have

I wanted to ask why he makes us choose the paths which are not to work out for us... and never ever tells us wat he wants so that we dont ever deem to think for ourselves and to the thing he wants from the very beginning

I wanted to ask what he wants from me and why he gave me this life... if all he wanted to see me was to be disgraced and lose every tiny bit of desire to live and breathe...

why does he hate me so much as to make me

Why was it not enuf that he wud have not made one soul who is lost who doesnt even have a desire to be found... who just wants to lose herself in the nothingness vanish in the air... like it was never there... to neither hate nor love... to neither need nor have... neither lose nor care... neither feel hunger nor cry to be fed... neither feel thirsty and die of thirst every day before she dies... who neither is born to die...

was it just to let us all know who to bow and live under... i know it was to just make urself known...

Dont u ever forgive me... cuz i dont love u! i only need you... cuz i have needs which need to be fulfilled... once i wont have needs i wont care for u... will i?

A Heart For You!

To all the lovers in the world...


A very Happy Valentines Day to you...


Enjoy!!!!!


<3

Will This Do?

Refresher!

Posting a song (just a little bit) sung in my voice...

Await feedbacks... and if you know someone who can use this voice... keep me in mind...:)

waiting to hear your kind feedbacks:)

here you go

Whitney Houstong Dies:(((

A sweet pang is there to know this... and to understand its mysery as i dig in to remember the moments and songs she gave us... the time i spend in my teen years singing her songs... being in awe of her beautiful voice and words...

and songs i will cherish for years to come...

She was a beautiful women with extraordinary voice... which cud wake u from dead!


If you dont know who she is the songs below will give u her intro. If you havent watched her movie Body Guard, starring ehrself and Kevin costner i recommend u all see that!

I wish her peace and love:)

God bless her Soul

Two of my favorite numbers of hers

Psyc Help

So finally i go see the Psychiatrist...

And he is a good looking well composed nice to talk to individual...

He listened and inquired and asked question to made me think...and i felt can i have a crush on him...

Actually i can...but he has a cute manager... so i am confused...:)

I told him my desire to meet Salman Khan... to which he said u think its possible... and i said yes... its highly possible... i am not surprised ur reactions not being one inch different then my parrents except u r more relaxed and calmed... and poised in stating ur concerns... they are a little u know... how parrents and siblings can be...

but

over all not a bad meeting... but yes...while i was talking... suddenly i started paying attention to my hands movement which was pretty awkward... and i forgot wat i was talking so... i just mumbled words... in order for him to know i know wat i am talking... but seriously i had completely forgotten wat i was talking abt... and then i just came to a halt...

so yes it happens... when u start looking at urself and wat u are doing that is amusing...

like my hands seem to have a mind of their own... infact everything in me has a mind of its own...

i am not disclosing names here of the psychiatrist.... he has asked me to join psychotherapy... where he will help me find wat i really want from my life... and how to go abt it...:)

since killing myself isnt that great idea...

i told him if i cud just get to be around salman khan more often... i wud never think of dying... and if he can help me with that... my money will be well used...

may be in the next session i will try bribe him... wats the point of making a new agenda when u already have one...

Right...


I dont think marriage is in my cards... for marriage u need to be in love with one guy... i kind of like every cute guy i come across... and i dont beleive in being judgemental... if i am happy to see u... u have the potential to have my attention and care...no matter if u r in thousands and millions...

u all deserve to be with me...


so in the equation of marriage... this clause is not possible... i need to discuss this with him too...

if he is strong enuf to not go mad... and become one who needs psychiatric help...:)

hope u all are doing better then me...

at times i dont see my being in this world... i mean... merey hissay ka khana pani... hawa... care kisi aur ke kaam bhi to asekti hai...iitney keroron logo mein ik mein na hoti... to kisi ka kya jata...


makes sense no?

Peta nahi when will he understand... and stop making pieces like me even for fun...its not funny anymore...may be ill be a good subject for future movie makers... a girl who cudnt understand her reason to be alive and never ever lived... before she died:)

God (the one i am mad with) bless u all... for he just has a problem with me... and i have a major problem with him... and fight it is which i know i will lose... but then... i dont care wat happens to me... i need answers... justifications...and he has to give them to me... face to face before i will accept any thing.

take care folks...i wish u happiness and love... loads of it!